Anish Nadh’s Blog

Time, is one resource that’s constantly ticking away,   A human being on an average lives until they are 80 years that translates to 80x365  29200 days. So when you choose to spend time on something, it is spent, you do not get it back.  This video I saw yesterday, explains how we spend our time in detail. Click here  This video doesn’t cover the quality of hours being spent, sitting and thinking and worrying about the future and living in the past. It all narrows down to what we choose to do right now, that will shape our future and make amazing memories that we won’t regret.  I read an interesting quote “Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results” Albert Einstein.   

Ryan is one of my best students. He’s 16 and already plays amazing finger style guitar. He always chooses the most difficult song to learn, and this puts me out of my comfort zone. We jammed all the songs learnt earlier. Fun! Each song took me down the memory lane, but I kept myself at the present, playing each note with utmost care. Ryan was mind blown when I played Borsalino double the speed. Ofcourse I’m his teacher, have to inspire the guy!  We also played the intro to Wish you were here by Pink Floyd. Also, I was bitten by the singing bug. I ended up singing in between classes. What a fulfilling day!  I need 2 guitars! The huge 12 string one I played at Soundglitz and a 6 string hopefully a Taylor! I’m already picturing myself playing on them. 

Acrophobia, his stomach was queasy, legs gave in, bones freezing. His brain teased him, instructing him to jump, while his heart was just filled with the fear, fear of survival of course. He didn’t want to jump! It was just his heart and head driving him nuts.  He closed his eyes, went to his happy place. Beach, bare footed not so solid ground, heart affirmed, “at least the waves can cushion the fall.” but the brain reasoned  “what if he drowned?” He suddenly remembered one drunk evening in Goa, he was singing and riding the waves fearlessly “Goodbye everybody I gotta go”, when a huge wave came crashing on him. Thankfully, his friend pulled him back into the shore. The happy place was suddenly not very comforting.  He prayed for courage. Then he got his wisdom, he overheard a woman at a distance saying “God will keep putting you in these situations there’s no escape, you will have to face this”  Trust, he had to trust the building he was on. It was built to last, it wouldn’t collapse.

In this vast universe, there’s the solar system and then you narrow down to a rotating-revolving ball called earth. On earth India is a small nation, it narrows down to Karnataka, Bangalore and Jalahalli. Here I am, a tiny human being with a big ego. I think I matter a lot, where the truth is, I don’t. Poof, I popped into this planet and poof I’ll be gone. Yet this insignificant being feels joy and pain, hot and cold, agony and ecstasy. And carries the weight of the world on his chest. I fail to live the moment by thinking about the past and worrying about the future. I am just a speck of dust.  This dust’s true calling is to learn, teach and play music. All the other needs are met without having to stress too much. Music was kind, and had provided to this speck of dust. Music was the only thing that returned the love.  _____________________________________________ I am just so very grateful for this life. 

Be alone,  Quiet mind, Full night’s sleep, A dream, where I’ve counted all the stars, Health, wealth, prosperity and all the good stuff, Brutally violent enemy,  A guitar or 10, Play music to a loved one, Musician’s approval,  Read  Control minds,  Spot lies, Heal anyone, Come back in the next life, 7 trustworthy friends (men only please)  A farm  A happy mother A proud father A settled sister  Play my guitar A Grammy (would be nice) Be anywhere I want to go Die a quick painless death.

Life is chiseling away parts of me, I see myself transforming into something I don’t recognize with. One wrong hit and the stone that I am, is going to crack. I’m holding it all together! I don’t want to break easily I give in sometimes other times I just refuse to break, my fight is with life.  Life, you can hit me all you want. I will look you in the eye and take it like a man. 

I took a week for some self reflection, spending a lot of time reading, making notes, playing music and mostly I was quiet, speaking only when necessary to family and students. I cut off a lot of people this time, I really needed this space to quiet down. It was getting a little too overwhelming to just talk to anyone. We all have our battles. Just talking about it and whining and being a victim and pushing it under a rug waiting for another convenient day is not the solution. Face your demons and take action.  I woke up quite early today 4:30 ish. I was wondering how life would’ve turned out for me with a family, a wife, cuddling with her in the early hours, cooking with her, getting kids ready for school. Then I realized, this needs to be done with the right person to make life joyful. No relationship is perfect a 100%, but you really need two people to invest time on each other to make it happen. Moreover, you need to be blessed for a life like that.   Anyway, decisions are made! Ch