Anish Nadh’s Blog

  * Had this awesome ragi mudde for lunch today!  One thousand days of writing these blogs. That’s like a long time, a sneak peek into my brain. I have had some good memories to go through. Some fiction, some poems with hints of non mentionable happenings, some really questioning my mental health. I’m an artist, Just let me be huh?  I started writing when I was letting go of people from my life. I kept a handful of close friends and cut contacts with so many and never went back. I gave up alcohol and smoking. I had an urge to drink quite recently and the boys bought me a Corona beer! I couldn’t drink it because the bottle fell down and broke. I’ve been sober since 9th January 2019.   September 27, 2021 was when I wrote my first blog.  Looking back, I see steady growth. I cleaned up my act, health, finances and business. Now I need to upscale.  Every time when I made a drastic change in life, I lost some friends, and those who really mattered stuck around. At this point, I feel I’m stuc

Reality hit hard today.  Punched me on my face!  It hurt for sometime.  I didn’t know what to do!  I was almost knocked out.  Then I remembered my vow,  Of not giving up!  A distant voice told me, To “Take it like a man”!  And that’s what I did!  I can’t win em all!  But I know I play fair!  I’m honest to myself!  If it hits me again?  I’ll take it like a man!  *2 red-dragon fruits. Subtle way of depicting manliness ! 

It was her maiden concert! Thermal and a Quarter live at Palace Grounds. Everyone were raving about this band! The front man Bruce Lee Mani on guitars and vocals, Rajeev on drums, Leslie on bass and Tony on a guitars. Her boyfriend knew every one!  She tagged along, it was his favourite band. She never really listened to this band or indie music, grew up listening to the South Indian film music that her dad played on a Sony tape recorder. She felt a little out of place. She would’ve preferred a good Ilayaraja or Rahman number. As the band started playing, the distorted guitar and drums gave her a headache! She looked around to see everyone grooving to the music. She tapped her feet and nodded along to fit in, catching the boyfriend’s eye. He smiled at her, mouthing the song Bruce was belting; “ Paper puli ” nudging her to sing the hook. She smiled, looking at him enjoying the show.  She was now getting tired, hungry and her legs were giving up. She whispered in his ear, “Let’s go get s

I feel. I breathe.  I’m alive.  Im still. 

Satan challenges a guitarist to play a piece of music on paper, failing which, he will take his soul. The guitarist, glances at the sheet of paper and finds it too easy to play. He takes the music sheet, puts it on a table and starts playing.  A string breaks, cutting his finger, mid performance. He bleeds and a drop falls on this sheet, and immediately it transforms into a music note on paper. Now the guitarist has more notes to play. The sheet absorbs another drop, and the music gets more difficult, also thanks to a missing string. Guess what! things gets worse, another string breaks, and another one, and  the notes keep increasing. The guitarist is so good, he’s able to read and play the music even with the broken strings.  Finally the sheet music comes to an end, to his relief, and the guitarist gives a satisfying grin, but one final drop falls on the paper and transforms into a “repeat” sign. And Satan goes “ now play again”. I vividly remember this scene, but I’m not sure if I sa

Today was a nice day! I was super focused, I started my day writing! followed by a tall glass of cucumber juice followed by breakfast. I sent my piano assignments and worked out. It was a very nice day with a lot of reflection and ideas. I saw a movie, The Menu ! It was amazing to see the head chef, being all artistic with his food. He goes over board with the presentation and delivery! Midway through, I craved for a burger. "You will eat less than you desire and more than you deserve". I saw this movie sped up a little and it seemed normal to have it sped up, perhaps the movie was slow, and I had to start classes at 4:00! I worked from 4pm to 9:00pm straight! Meanwhile, I craved for some pakoda that someone posted yesterday, and mentioned it to mom and sent her the recipe. And there it was on my table! I had it with some black coffee. Must wait and see what tomorrow brings. So I'll leave you with a song. Enjoy Drive, Incubus  

Today it was paper work day! I sat with my CA, Raghavendra and did some financial planning. I looked at my travel plans, talking to uncle Suku from the Netherlands. I also planned my music school’s goals this year! By God’s grace everything is falling in place. I’ll say more when it all falls in place.  I have shamelessly announced my Netherlands travel, but the visa may not come through, sadly. I’m literally jobless on papers. Perks of being an artist! Maybe I’ll take up a real job soon if the visa doesn’t go through! I love the discipline the corporate structure brings but not the boring desk job. So, struggling musician it is for now! There are enough contradictions in my head already!  And I’m almost there with 1000 blog posts just a few more to go! Do I stop after 1000 or continue? Let me know!  Cheers Anish.