Anish Nadh’s Blog

Time, is one resource that’s constantly ticking away,   A human being on an average lives until they are 80 years that translates to 80x365  29200 days. So when you choose to spend time on something, it is spent, you do not get it back.  This video I saw yesterday, explains how we spend our time in detail. Click here  This video doesn’t cover the quality of hours being spent, sitting and thinking and worrying about the future and living in the past. It all narrows down to what we choose to do right now, that will shape our future and make amazing memories that we won’t regret.  I read an interesting quote “Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results” Albert Einstein.   

Ryan is one of my best students. He’s 16 and already plays amazing finger style guitar. He always chooses the most difficult song to learn, and this puts me out of my comfort zone. We jammed all the songs learnt earlier. Fun! Each song took me down the memory lane, but I kept myself at the present, playing each note with utmost care. Ryan was mind blown when I played Borsalino double the speed. Ofcourse I’m his teacher, have to inspire the guy!  We also played the intro to Wish you were here by Pink Floyd. Also, I was bitten by the singing bug. I ended up singing in between classes. What a fulfilling day!  I need 2 guitars! The huge 12 string one I played at Soundglitz and a 6 string hopefully a Taylor! I’m already picturing myself playing on them. 

Acrophobia, his stomach was queasy, legs gave in, bones freezing. His brain teased him, instructing him to jump, while his heart was just filled with the fear, fear of survival of course. He didn’t want to jump! It was just his heart and head driving him nuts.  He closed his eyes, went to his happy place. Beach, bare footed not so solid ground, heart affirmed, “at least the waves can cushion the fall.” but the brain reasoned  “what if he drowned?” He suddenly remembered one drunk evening in Goa, he was singing and riding the waves fearlessly “Goodbye everybody I gotta go”, when a huge wave came crashing on him. Thankfully, his friend pulled him back into the shore. The happy place was suddenly not very comforting.  He prayed for courage. Then he got his wisdom, he overheard a woman at a distance saying “God will keep putting you in these situations there’s no escape, you will have to face this”  Trust, he had to trust the building he was on. It was built to last, it ...

In this vast universe, there’s the solar system and then you narrow down to a rotating-revolving ball called earth. On earth India is a small nation, it narrows down to Karnataka, Bangalore and Jalahalli. Here I am, a tiny human being with a big ego. I think I matter a lot, where the truth is, I don’t. Poof, I popped into this planet and poof I’ll be gone. Yet this insignificant being feels joy and pain, hot and cold, agony and ecstasy. And carries the weight of the world on his chest. I fail to live the moment by thinking about the past and worrying about the future. I am just a speck of dust.  This dust’s true calling is to learn, teach and play music. All the other needs are met without having to stress too much. Music was kind, and had provided to this speck of dust. Music was the only thing that returned the love.  _____________________________________________ I am just so very grateful for this life. 

Be alone,  Quiet mind, Full night’s sleep, A dream, where I’ve counted all the stars, Health, wealth, prosperity and all the good stuff, Brutally violent enemy,  A guitar or 10, Play music to a loved one, Musician’s approval,  Read  Control minds,  Spot lies, Heal anyone, Come back in the next life, 7 trustworthy friends (men only please)  A farm  A happy mother A proud father A settled sister  Play my guitar A Grammy (would be nice) Be anywhere I want to go Die a quick painless death.

Life is chiseling away parts of me, I see myself transforming into something I don’t recognize with. One wrong hit and the stone that I am, is going to crack. I’m holding it all together! I don’t want to break easily I give in sometimes other times I just refuse to break, my fight is with life.  Life, you can hit me all you want. I will look you in the eye and take it like a man. 

I took a week for some self reflection, spending a lot of time reading, making notes, playing music and mostly I was quiet, speaking only when necessary to family and students. I cut off a lot of people this time, I really needed this space to quiet down. It was getting a little too overwhelming to just talk to anyone. We all have our battles. Just talking about it and whining and being a victim and pushing it under a rug waiting for another convenient day is not the solution. Face your demons and take action.  I woke up quite early today 4:30 ish. I was wondering how life would’ve turned out for me with a family, a wife, cuddling with her in the early hours, cooking with her, getting kids ready for school. Then I realized, this needs to be done with the right person to make life joyful. No relationship is perfect a 100%, but you really need two people to invest time on each other to make it happen. Moreover, you need to be blessed for a life like that.   Anyway, decisions are...

Flowers, I sent, Were found dead on their arrival The words, I said, Inserted foot in my mouthful So when, we dance, My lead it ain't so graceful (isn't so, not ain't so) I'm a hapless romantic St-t-tuttering p-poet Just call me a tragic comic Cause I'm, in, in love with you And when, we dine, I forget to push in your seat I wear, the wine, Spilling hearts all over my sleeve A stitch, in time, Proposing down on my knees (splitting between the seams) I'm a hapless romantic St-t-tuttering p-poet Just call me a tragic comic Cause I'm, in, in love with you Nobody, can know the, Trouble I've, seen Nobody, can know the, Trouble I, get into, When I'm with you

Mother, do you think they'll drop the bomb? Mother, do you think they'll like this song? Mother, do you think they'll try to break my balls? Ooh, ah Mother, should I build the wall? Mother, should I run for President? Mother, should I trust the government? Mother, will they put me in the firing line? Ooh, ah Is it just a waste of time? Hush now, baby, baby, don't you cry Mama's gonna make all of your nightmares come true Mama's gonna put all of her fears into you Mama's gonna keep you right here under her wing She won't let you fly, but she might let you sing Mama's gonna keep baby cozy and warm Ooh baby, ooh baby, ooh baby Of course mama's gonna help build the wall Mother, do you think she's good enough? For me? Mother, do you think she's dangerous To me? Mother, will she tear your little boy apart? Ooh, ah Mother, will she break my heart? Hush now, baby, baby, don't you cry Mama's gonna check out all your girlfriends for you Mam...

There is a love affair between The Moon and I We skate the Milky Way in a forever sky And all the stars crash like waves beneath our feet And time could never find us As we slip beneath nova sheets And down below, you command the ocean’s tides But you spin alone in a prison of gravity Magnetic soul casts a spell so enchanting Behind my eyes, I search in my galaxy Come to me, show me how you glow We’ll escape to the other side of space Where forever and never and all that’s unknown is known

I know your eyes in the morning sun I feel you touch me in the pouring rain And the moment that you wander far from me I wanna feel you in my arms again And you come to me on a summer breeze Keep me warm in your love, then you softly leave And it's me you need to show How deep is your love? How deep is your love? How deep is your love? I really mean to learn 'Cause we're living in a world of fools Breaking us down when they all should let us be We belong to you and me I believe in you You know the door to my very soul You're the light in my deepest, darkest hour You're my savior when I fall And you may not think I care for you When you know down inside that I really do And it's me you need to show How deep is your love? How deep is your love? How deep is your love? I really mean to learn 'Cause we're living in a world of fools Breaking us down when they all should let us be We belong to you and me Na-na-na-na-na Na-na-na-na-na-na-na-na Na-na-na-na-na-na-...

My child arrived just the other day; Came to the world in the usual way But there were planes to catch and bills to pay. He learned to walk while I was away. He was talkin' 'fore I knew it. And as he grew he said, "I'm gonna be like you, Dad. You know I'm gonna be like you." And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon, Little boy blue and the man on the moon. "When you comin' home ?" "Son, I don't know when. We'll get together then. You know we'll have a good time then." Well, my son turned ten just the other day. He said , "Thanks for the ball, Dad. Come on, let's play. Could you teach me to throw ?" I said, "Not today. I got a lot to do." He said, "That's okay." And he walked away and he smiled and he said, "You know, I'm gonna be like him, yeah. You know I'm gonna be like him." And the cat's in the cradle and the silver spoon, Little boy blue and the man...

It's late at night and neither one of us is sleeping I can't imagine living my life after you're gone Wondering why so many questions have no answers I keep on searching for the reason why we went wrong Where is our yesterday You and I could use it right now But if this is goodbye Just take my heart when you go I don't have the need for it anymore I'll always love you, but you're too hard to hold Just take my heart when you go Here we are about to take the final step now I just can't fool myself, I know there's no turning back Face to face it's been an endless conversation But when the love is gone you're left with nothing but talk I'd give my everything If only I could turn you around But if this is goodbye Just take my heart when you go I don't have the need for it anymore I'll always love you, but you're too hard to hold Just take my heart when you go