Anish Nadh’s Blog

It was around 2:30 am! I just couldn’t sleep. I was on Instagram, saw this reel about a prisoner escaping the prison and looting a vault and then getting back to prison undetected. I had to watch this movie. I looked through the comments and found the name of the movie. It was Logan Lucky.  I searched for it, And finally found it was available to purchase on YouTube! And that’s what I did. The movie was great.  I especially like how organised the criminals are. They pay attention to detail and always have a backup plan and know when to get out.  Also, the criminals have integrity amongst themselves. They just trust their kind. There’s a sense of belonging and brotherhood. They have each other’s back. The rest just gets caught.  This movie also portrays Logan’s bond with his daughter. He would just do anything to be with her. It is implied he played a role in transforming her from being a “diva” to being a proper country girl with his fatherly humor in the end. 

My digital piano had some issue, it played beats by itself, probably because my maid used Colin to wipe and clean it. It was a critical time now that I have my students preparing for exams and the piano is quite expensive. So, I decided to get it serviced. Yamaha quoted about 6k + other charges to fix this. I felt this was overpriced. Also, they would change the entire board plus transporting it in my car was impossible.  Soon I learnt Martin, the violinist who lived just down the road repaired keyboards. So I got in touch with him. It took us a couple of hours and ₹200 worth micro switches to replace. The keyboard is working perfectly as of now!

He found himself caught between wakefulness and sleep. In wakefulness, reality took over; in sleep, dreams. Lately, he noticed the boundaries crossfading into each other.  Dreaming in wakefulness, at the same time, strangely aware within his dreams.   Half-asleep in the middle of the night, he played chess with strangers across the world. Victory came often, and he was surprised at his own brilliance, especially because it was at that time of the hour. Was it truly him playing, or merely the dreamy-consciousness at work?   He woke before the alarm, again and again. Another day, another week, another month. Time turned its pages; slow in the present, and fast when he looked back at the past. 

I had a crazy headache yesterday! It was as though there was fire inside my head! I just couldn’t function. It was the first time I felt something like that. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. It eventually subsided. But I’m so sleepy today, I want to finish one more class and nap till 3:00 pm today. I’ll be better after that nap!  Today’s classes got over one after another. I didn’t feel it being tedious. I was surprisingly alert and was patient. Didn’t loose my cool with the students. Looks like the new diet is responsible for all this. The body will have to get adjusted. Can’t wait for the bloodwork and investigations to come out next week. 

It’s a rare occurrence to have both sun and rain at the same time. A sun shower happened yesterday around noon time. My granny used to point out that it was fox’s wedding everytime this happened.  The sun shower itself is a paradox. The sun; light, joy happening at once with rain; tears, sorrow. It’s like being in two moods at the same time.  The sun shower feels like it’s a trick, and that maybe why it’s associated with a sly fox, holding a secret wedding.  The fox’s wedding can also symbolize love that’s hidden and unconventional.  But whatever the meaning, I like it when both sunshine and rain meets during the day, just for the rainbows. 

He squatted and let go of a giant prehistoric poop. With his short hands he swatted away some flies settling on his chest, but the flies mocked him by flying around his nose, where his hands couldn’t reach!  Shaking them off he looked up. “What’s that? A giant meatball in the sky!” His mouth opened, ready to catch it. But the fiery meatball kept growing, almost doubling in size every second!   That’s when it hit him! this wasn’t food, this was the end. Suddenly he felt the extinction blues.   He wished someone had already invented the wheel and saved him. But no, nothing. Just him, his poop, some flies and a giant meatball in the sky that grew bigger and bigger. Still, he stood proudly. “Soon,” he told himself, “I will be a fossil in a museum.”  The earth shook violently as the meteor made contact on the steamy, fresh, hot T-Rex poop, wiping out all life. Well almost. Some of his relatives survived.  Yes the cockroaches made it and they are now raiding your kitc...

Some time long ago,  Birds lined the telephone wires,  And sweaters kept us warm.  Cream buns and apple cake; luxurious snacks,  Brigades and Commercials felt like home.   A school bus pass meant freedom, Tazos and Trump cards filled our pockets.  Archie’s and Tinkle passed from hand to hand,  Petty shops where stories waited.   Guavas and mangoes; every season had its share,  National Market gave us brands we dreamed of.  Strummed every guitar at Reynolds.  Cassettes and CDs were collected.  Missed calls carried love in silence.  We caught up face to face.  Now, it’s both better and worse.  We are growing,  Growing weary. The years pass,  And time gathers in our bones. 

My bees! I split my stingless honeybees. From one hive, I now have two different hives. I also harvested honey and found the queen bee a few weeks ago.  Today I saw cobwebs around one of the hives and a spider! Looks like they were enjoying my bees. It’s quite difficult to protect the bees from their natural predators. It was also interesting to see how the bees defended the hive with sticky wax called propolis. I cleaned the cobwebs, and thoroughly cleaned the area! Looking forward to some more honey next year!   

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  A few days ago, my neighbor gave me a call to check my CCTV camera! Someone was doing black magic! On close inspection, I noticed a lot of cut lemons, 5 eggs and a coconut. The eggs were placed with some flowers on a betel leaf. Someone has intentionally gone through all ruts to do black magic, just to make someone suffer.  My CCTV was not focused on this spot. So I called the service person for maintenance. Many people in my layout shared concerns about this in the WhatsApp group and decided to keep vigil.  This got me wondering why people want to go through the task of putting someone else down instead of just working on themselves? Why does this individual want to bring someone down? Revenge?  We live in a world where it’s now normal to shoot someone for having a different opinion. All these events show how hatred has taken over us.  After a few hours, someone from BBMP came to sweep the road. They refused to clean the “ magic spot ” fearing the repercussio...

My band jammed after a long break, last night! We booked the spacious, sound proofed Octave Jam Pad on Brigade Road. It felt great to play together again. We completed another song called Stillness. Akshay joined us later and took some videos using his fancy Ray Ban glasses. After jamming we went to Chin Lung bar. I just drank water even though I had the urge to smoke and drink. I fought the thought.  I like it when the band is drunk! Everyone becomes a different person. My band guys are funny, little more less PC and caring. We stayed at the bar till they kicked us out at 1:30 and then I booked my cab! Speak about care, they all waited till I got my cab, holding beer in their bladders fighting nature’s call.  I reached home at around 2:00 am, and couldn’t find the keys to my door. It took me about 30 minutes to find it in my bag safe, in a pocket. I didn’t really sleep, watched some Fresh and Fit podcasts white Zherka and dozed off until the alarm rang.  I took some clas...

Yesterday was some heavy workout with my fitness coach Rinshad and my body is sore!  I had worked with him a few months ago now I restarted my training again after a break.  It’s good to have a dedicated trainer who can guide you through the process. We started with warmups and then targeted each muscle groups, stretching it to the maximum I can, at the moment. He says that muscle is like rubber band. Do too much, it will snap and over time, we can achieve the flexibility gradually and slowly. I like the slow progress.  I also started my species appropriate nutrition protocol with Kabir. It’s going to be intense! I’m gonna be given specific lifestyle changes after a thorough bloodwork. Which means, no more restaurants, sugar etc. Only God knows what will show up on the bloodwork.  If it kills me, SO BE IT! 

Yesterday I had Mrs. Faith over from Trinity to instill some examination fear in my kids. They are all preparing for the prestigious Trinity Piano Exams!  She discussed how the exams are graded and how to do the exams efficiently! It was quite embarrassing when Zoey yelled out “Hashtag” when she pointed to a Sharp sign! I have a lot of work to do to prepare them for the exams!  I also bought them some snacks so, there were no complaints about this being a long session!  These Exams are not easy if one is not prepared. I’m just hoping each of my students put in the work! 

“ It’s a sin to kill a mockingbird because they don’t do one thing but make music for us to enjoy. ”   I am reading To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee. This book revolves around themes of racism, elitism, moral integrity, empathy, and coming of age. I bought the hardbound illustrated edition.   This book taught me how to put myself in another person’s shoes and truly understand their perspective before taking a stand. It’s easy to create our own justifications, but the other person will have their own reasons for acting in a particular way. When we put ourselves in their place, we gain understanding.   Coming back to the story, when Tom Robinson is accused of a crime, Atticus defends this black man in court, even though the entire town questions and condemns him. Eventually the jury finds him guilty even though he isn’t.  This book is a testament to courage and standing up for what is right, rather than going wherever the wind blows, following the town’s opinion. It...

Tried something yesterday, I brushed my teeth using my left hand. It was messy, but I was stumped as to how much that affected the quality and ease of brushing.  Later, I fretted the guitar with the other hand and it was a disaster playing “Enter Sandman”! The little things we do regularly is training us to mastery over a period of time. I can almost type this blog blind folded.  So, I’m going to stick to the preferred hand for now. Maybe I’ll start typing these blogs using a laptop from now on. 

I bought this software called Guitar Pro and it was indeed a life changer. I could now edit notes and compose music. What it lets you do is, helps visualize music and play back the audio as well. This was a true life changer for me.  Having lot of creative ideas, I find it difficult sometimes to bring them out through the instrument. Now I just write it on the computer, edit and then sit with it, on my guitar.  Of late, I am transcribing ideas that I like from reels and it’s easier to note down, and rely more on my second brain, the computer. 

I started my day at 6:00 am. And I had back to back classes till 7:00 with just an hour’s break! I’m not complaining! The day went smooth, until I reached out to Abhay, because he wanted to learn a Slain’s song as no instructions were available online.  He came over at 7:00 pm sharp. He already knew how to play most of it. We jammed till 11:00 pm didn’t watch the time at all until his dad called back. I dropped him home soon after! I’m so proud of Abhay. I can see that he puts in a lot of work with his music. Then I had my dinner and spent time with Andy and Camy online. 

I received a WhatsApp message from Nivedh today. He sent me some songs from Sunday school back in the day that we used to sing.  We also talked about how the album Ticket to Christmas was copied onto a cassette, and I used to listen to it all day! It had the best guitar riffs for Christmas songs.  We even put together a Christmas play about time travel and sang these songs while performing for everyone at church. It was indeed a beautiful walk down the nostalgic lane.

There is a bigger picture for me; to create music.  I’ve even made it my life’s mission. Teach, learn, play! This takes priority over everything else.  It’s been quite hard for me to stay true to my calling.  What prevents me from this is my body stiffness, due to improper diet and sleeping habits. I’m getting into a diet that’s suited to my body after a very expensive consultation with “Phitsmith”! It’s still in process; lots of blood work, diet restrictions. I’m excited to start this journey.   Secondly, it’s online content, including Instagram reels, YouTube, Netflix, etc. I need to get that under control, restrict its use, and focus more on content that will help with my calling.   Thirdly, my workout routine has been non-existent for a month now. I’m going to get back to it with Phitsmith.   Lastly, I want to friend-zone all the women in the world except for one. If this is meant to be, it will be. I’m not manifesting it, chasing it, or obsessing over ...

What a time to live in? We are literally in between petty family fights to the Palestine-Israel war. All this noise in social media one is forced to take sides. But is it really about sides? Or are these distractions, cooked up to misguide us away from a bigger problem being discovered?  I don’t like to take sides! There are assholes everywhere. Every event must be isolated and judged separately. I must build my tolerance to the left and right, isolating each event.  It’s become so much easier to kill people who don’t share your opinions. Lot of people are dying unnatural death, to silence their speech. Human beings will never learn. We will continue the hating and the killing, until we ourselves die. That’s our curse. 

We are all one,  Just separated as bodies,  United as the one universal consciousness!  We are connected!  You know it.  So do I!  How much ever we deny it.  I feel your presence around me,  Though you’re far away!  I just hope you’re ok! 

What a day! I started classes at 6:00 am to 8:30 for my students in the US! Then, after breakfast, I slept and woke up again at 2:00. I had lunch and again classes till 9:30. Did I over work? Or did I rest too much? I don’t know.  But I had some good dreams. How nice it would be if it were all real? Dreams are our way of fulfilling what’s missing in life. I cherish that, especially because I can control the outcome. After waking up, I was disappointed with how life turned out to be and decided to make the best of what I have.  Maybe I’ll go crazy and be in a state of perpetual dreaming, living my best life or instead I’ll immerse  myself into the world of music. Atleast music won’t abandon me. 

 I had my band rehearsals last night from 8:30 to 11:30 we wrote 5 songs so far. I was feeling a bit groggy through the rehearsals and somehow got through. The band was excited about the Blood Moon phenomenon from the lunar eclipse yesterday. I booked a cab back, dozing off thinking how the planets are in its orbit doing its thing, over and over again.  My thoughts went to a woman I love, I know I will love her forever and she will never know because I will never communicate with her ever. I sent her a lot of love through the universe. We stay united as one in the universe. We all are connected that way. I still can’t get her off my mind. Like the planets, I’ll be in my orbit. My sole purpose is to make music and love this woman unconditionally.  

I didn’t eat,  Just to know what hunger felt like!  I played my guitar better,  I was focused, I didn’t feel hungry anymore.  I played some more!  I starved my stomach,  But fed my soul.  This is what I signed up for. 

Silly me!  Why did I do these things?  Like going all the way with you,  Sacrificing my sleep!  Because I love your company!  I love it when you drive and we listen to songs!  You’ll never know what you mean to me.  I won’t say anything! 

The hour is here,  To stand up,  To hold the ones you care for.  How does one find the courage?   Life gets difficult by the day.  I’ve lost faith in religion,  But not in God!  That’s all the hope I have.   Active mind,  So many things to do.  My body can’t take it, It just keeps me humble.   I stand with all the might I have,  Seeking and finding help,  At the same time,  Helping the ones in need.   All this pointless venting  Is just to tell myself; I’ve got work to do,  I’ll worry another day.

How many threads are you entangled with? Wasn’t it simple when you were just a spool? You let go of yourself, sent the thread to the wind hoping to catch a feeling. You got entangled instead. But you cut the thread and let go again, and entangled some more. Soon the thread will end. All you’ll have is your empty spool. 

The rain drizzled gently on the tarred road, the hairy caterpillars congregated on the compound wall, fearless. There was a sense of melancholy in the air, as it was not a very bright day. I took my chetak scooter out for a spin in the rain. I felt the cold droplets on my skin. It started pouring heavily. I passed by the bakery, fragrance of freshly baked bread filled the air. I noticed other bikers taking cover from the rain. I didn’t stop, I rode on. 

Then she told me,   “I have a feeling,  You like the lady who sells plants.  You want her to notice you, Don’t you?” “You’re a little naughty,  But in a good way.  I figured you out quickly,  You can’t fool me.” “You might try to play a game,  But I’ve already solved it.  You won’t beat me,  I know your secret.” I just didn’t like being read,  She saw through me!  She always did! So I left. 

I was your victim,  You, the beneficiary!  Yes! You used me!  Wait, come to think of it!  You were my victim!  I was the beneficiary!  Yes! I used you!  Wait again!  We are both victims and beneficiaries of our actions!  Adulting without anyone noticing! And silently disappearing into the world!  Next victim please!