The Bomb!

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I got a wedding proposal through my student Nathan’s parents yesterday. We had a lengthy conversation, and they  left it at “ think about it”, but I really don’t know what to say. I don’t have the answer for them. I didn’t feel like “hell yeah” let’s do this!  

What do we need from a spouse? 
Someone we can trust, companionship, basic needs and a few more. I really miss that feminine energy with me. It could be simple things like someone who picks curtains for the home. But all this at what cost? What if they don’t feel the same way? I know it’s gonna be a lonesome road for me in the long run and I can deal with it. 

I find my freedom always away from being gaslit, manipulated and played. A few of these incidents and I’m cautious. Now I play the “game”, knowing exactly what I want! There are options in abundance I don’t care anymore. 

I will not settle with anyone who does not pass my “vibe check”. I will know when it’s time. I’m in no hurry. Maybe I’ll never marry. I’ll leave the rest to my fate. Whatever it is, fun will be had! How about a game of chess, woman? (Wink) 


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