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Stages of Abuse!

Angel – I try to fix what’s hurt and torn, Thinking love can make it whole. I act kind so I won’t feel worn, Scared of what’s going to come. Critic – I find mistakes in what I do, And point them out in others too. I call it truth, but deep inside, It’s fear that I’m trying to hide. Victim – I hold my pain for all to see, It proves the world’s been hard on me. I say I want to heal and grow, But part of me won’t let it go. Destroyer – I tear things down just to feel free, Even the parts once good to me. When all is gone, there’s solitude I claim, A kind of peace in the empty air.

The Matchbox

The match struck the box, there were sparks. The head flared, then disappeared into smoke. It had to burn, that was its purpose. The box,  patient, silent, spent one stick after another. And when all were spent, the fire gone, the box, once keeper of light,  was tossed aside.

Some People Only Like You When You’re Broken

Have you noticed how some people only seem to like you when you’re struggling? When you’re quiet, uncertain, or going through a tough time, they’re right there. They listen, they nod, they tell you they care. But the moment you start doing better, something changes. Your light becomes too bright for them. Your confidence feels like noise. Your growth makes them uncomfortable, not because you did something wrong, but because your shine reminds them of what they’re not doing. When you were down, you were easy to relate to. Safe. Familiar. But when you rise, you unknowingly challenge the limits they’ve set for themselves. That’s when you notice their energy shift; fewer calls, fewer messages, maybe even silence when you share good news. It’s a strange thing to accept, but not everyone is meant to celebrate you. Some people liked the version of you that needed saving. They don’t know what to do with the version that doesn’t. And that’s okay. You don’t have to dim your light to keep others ...

Blood tests

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 Today I gave my blood samples to the Phitsmith team for the analysis. I’ll get my reports within 2 days. Time for a major life upgrade now. No looking back.  After so many days I also walked into my backyard. The coffee bush has grown quite well. I also harvested some Sour sop fruits. After which, I played monopoly online with my friends it was intense and I went bankrupt quickly. It was a really good day! Looking forward to tomorrw. 

Ear-Ring!

 I had this ringing in my left ear especially while playing a metronome or certain notes. My ears were catching up with age and ears are indeed an integral part for musicians like me. I was worried!  I spoke about this to a friend and Instagram listened. I was given an ad to a device that could send a camera in my ear and have a look! So I got that device.  I put it in my ear and saw a white grain like thing there size of a sugar crystal, I scooped it out with my device and viola my ear was fixed! No more ringing and buzzing! 

Execute your ideas!

People throw ideas at me all the time; could be a guitar part for a song, or something random like growing mushrooms. But here’s what I’ve learned: an idea means nothing if you can’t bring it to life. What sets me apart is that when I decide to do something, I actually do it. I give it my all and see it through. That’s the part most people skip;  the boring, repetitive, sometimes frustrating part where things actually take shape. And honestly, knowing when to say no is just as important. I don’t jump at every idea that comes my way. If I can’t do it justice, I’d rather pass. It’s better to not start at all than to start and quit halfway. So yeah, ideas are nice. But getting the work done? That’s what really counts.

Mushroom Harvest!

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 Zui just got a piano at the farm so she invited me for lunch with her family. We also thought it would be the best time for mushroom harvesting! And that’s what we did!  When I reached the farm, Kaya, Akshay, Sherry and her mom were there. We all went to harvest mushrooms.  We got a lot of shrooms so Kirtana made pasta for us with some salad on the side! It was amazing we also had some bread pudding and chocolate cake for dessert.  After that heavy lunch, I played the piano and we all sang and had a good time. It was an awesome day!