Anish Nadh’s Blog

Some people have mastered this talent. They never apologize. They can hurt you, disrespect you, embarrass you, and then show up the next day acting like nothing ever happened. No acknowledgment. No empathy. No reflection. Just casually starting a conversation like, “So what are you doing today?” as if yesterday was deleted from the universe. And the worst part is that you are suddenly put in a tricky place. If you bring up the issue, you look dramatic. If you don’t bring up the issue, you feel like you are betraying your own emotions. So you end up maintaining peace. Not because you are okay, but because you are tired. Meanwhile, the peace you are desperately trying to maintain is the same peace they destroyed in the first place. But now you are the one responsible for keeping everything “normal.” The truth is, they never intended to fix anything. Their intention is only to control the narrative. As long as they pretend nothing happened, you are supposed to go along with their version ...

Unresolved dreams, Trauma Bond, that’s a curse! There no point in living such a life. How does one find purpose and meaning through all this? It’s impossible.  I’ll wear my curse like a badge, keep my head held high. I can take this. I will miss you forever. You may not be so kind. Your Gods are. 

What do you do when people disappoint you? I have seen people walking away from me when I disappointed them. So I did just that! And it works! It’s so liberating! No drama, just detachment and peace. Thank you universe for this wonderful lesson. 

The new diet I’m trying with Phitsmith is honestly wild. Just meat, no carbs, no veggies, no fruits, no masalas, no sugar. Basically, I’m surviving on discipline at this point. But it’s helping my back; stiffness is easing, pain is reducing, and I actually feel like I’m almost 20 again. It’s tough, but I never realised how much my diet was affecting my autoimmune issues. Of course, I miss hanging out, eating sweets, Milanos and all that fun stuff. But right now, I’m the priority. I get to decide what goes into my body and what doesn’t. I also know this diet may give me other complications, but for now, I’m choosing my poison. If nothing else, it’s a good test of my willpower.

Last year around this time was honestly one of the roughest phases of my life. I was trying hard to convince myself that I had the willpower to stay away from things I love, people I care about, food I enjoy, and even routines I hated. I even stopped writing blogs for almost 2 months. It’s been 4 years now… Somehow, I still feel like I achieved something. There were regrets, there were learnings, and there were plenty of mistakes. But all of it made me stronger from the inside. For that, I’m grateful. The universe kept sending the right people at the right time, and I can only thank it for that. When I look back now, I can see how much stronger I’ve become; physically and mentally. I still push myself every day. It’s not easy, but I’m learning to hold my ground with a little more willpower, and not slip back into old patterns again.

On my birthday,  Tie a ribbon on your hand,  And give it to me.