Anish Nadh’s Blog

People have this different perception about me. I can’t believe Soumya is persistent about me dating her friend, she even sent some girl my number and made her call me.  The phone rang while I was cleaning my music school. We spoke for a bit. She had texted me by mistake earlier and I had ignored it. I then told her that I had a lot going on in my life and I’m not really looking forward to seeing someone at the moment. She even recollected seeing me on a dating app!! I’m super focused on getting my life in order right now I have no time for dating and sitting and chatting with women!  People come with this perception that I’m a nice guy. I’m not! I am the biggest red flag for any good woman. I don’t plan to settle down at the moment. So save yourself some time and mental torture and stay away from me please! I don’t want good women. I stay away from them! I just like the bad ones. 😉 

I had a very long day yesterday!  8:30 am Woke up at 8:30, and rushed to church after a cold shower at 9:00 am to help the choir. It was potluck, and I had a lot of chicken to eat. I avoided all the sweets and watched my diet.  12:00 noon After church, we all hung out and Soumya tried to match me with her single friend. I really have too much on my plate and don’t have the time for this. Plus it takes a lot of effort to connect with someone and it never ends well. I told her I’m just trying to find happiness within and I don’t have the space for another person, especially since it’s a stranger.  Then Andy and I spoke to Neomi and we cherished some good old days. It was now 3:00 pm!  4:00 pm My students and their parents organised an after party. We had to dress up like famous musicians or come in some retro attire! I dressed as Angus Young, minus the golf hat!  5:00 pm The boys weren’t in the party dress code, so I took Durga’s eyeliner and drew mustaches on all of them!  6:00 pm!  I o

 I really need to fix my sleep. I’m just losing it over whiling away time on YouTube and postponing important tasks to later. Otherwise it was a productive day yesterday I took my classes, worked out, helped the church choir.  Looking forward to going to church after a long time. Plus, my students and parents are throwing a dress- up party, organized by Durga’s mom. It’s gonna be wild! I know it. 

I helped a tiny guy who showed up at my door with a broken acoustic guitar (yes we glued it all together after a freak accident with araldite) go from this… ..to this..  He put in the hard work, obsessed over it, and did a fantastic job. His dad once even complained to me that,  this was all that he did, playing guitar; and he supports him a ton after all that complaining.  I saw the potential in Abhay and gave him a guitar pedal to keep as long as he wanted! The rest is history. I’m proud of him and many others who continue to blow my mind!   On the bright side, I have quite a few students who came to me through him. I’m just grateful.  Glimpses from the student concert.

I have been regularly working out, eating right, seeing small changes for this being just 2 months. It will take atleast 6 months to show results on the body. But that’s not my aim. My goal is to be consistent, showing up to the gym to complete the 75 day challenge. I just have to find time doing my tasks without slacking.  My lessons are picking up pace again. I need to work with all my students who are super keen now after the concert. Some are preparing for the next one.  I’m looking forward to Christmas. Ordered some bespoke  plum cakes. I can feel the music in me coming alive. Looking forward to working on some carols.  I booked solo tickets to Extreme and A7x. Two Bryan Adams tickets, I’m hoping to go on that with a possible date or sell the ticket, I’m offered 3 times the price.  I’m quite happy with the recent turn of events! Looking forward to next year.  I’m posting this here with a vengeance, a gentle reminder to me!

I got a wedding proposal through my student Nathan’s parents yesterday. We had a lengthy conversation, and they  left it at “ think about it”, but I really don’t know what to say. I don’t have the answer for them. I didn’t feel like “hell yeah” let’s do this!   What do we need from a spouse?  Someone we can trust, companionship, basic needs and a few more. I really miss that feminine energy with me. It could be simple things like someone who picks curtains for the home. But all this at what cost? What if they don’t feel the same way? I know it’s gonna be a lonesome road for me in the long run and I can deal with it.  I find my freedom always away from being gaslit, manipulated and played. A few of these incidents and I’m cautious. Now I play the “game”, knowing exactly what I want! There are options in abundance I don’t care anymore.  I will not settle with anyone who does not pass my “vibe check”. I will know when it’s time. I’m in no hurry. Maybe I’ll never marry. I’ll leave the rest