Anish Nadh’s Blog

We often feel drawn to things that are not fully available. It happens for two reasons. Firstly, distance creates curiosity. When something is not ours, our mind fills the empty space with possibilities. It feels exciting because nothing has challenged it yet. There is no risk and no pressure. It stays clean and comfortable in our imagination. Secondly, we enjoy the feeling of pursuit. We like the idea of becoming better for something. The effort makes us feel alive. Even when we know the outcome may never change or have according to what we want, the act of trying gives us a sense of progress and fulfillment.  Most of the time, it is a mix of both. A wish to stay safe from real attachment and a desire to reach for something that feels just beyond us. In the end, we are not always attached to the person or the goal. We are attached to the idea of what it could be. And sometimes, that idea feels easier to hold than reality.

This year taught me one thing. I had to test my will power. I realised I was not as strong as I thought. I gave in to small temptations. They lasted only two minutes but the regret stayed much longer. Those moments showed me how weak my self control was. So I started working on it. I treated it like a habit. Some days I did well. Some days I failed. But I kept trying. I spent a lot of time on YouTube listening to people who speak about discipline and focus. People like Jordan Peterson, David Goggins and Dandapani. I was trying to understand how they stay steady even when things get tough. From a simple psychological view will power is your mind learning to sit with discomfort. Your brain wants quick comfort. When you pull away from it you feel restless. That is the real fight. Not with the world but with your own urges. The one thing that helped me is consistency. Even a little bit every day. I still make mistakes. I still struggle. I am not where I want to be. But I can see myself get...